Saturday, June 21, 2014

Cosmos - final thoughts

I watched the majority of Cosmos with Neil deGrasse Tyson and over all, I liked it a lot. But, getting my minimal criticism out of the way, I think it lacked focus and went off on a lot of tangents. I thought it was going to focus on space, but it seemed to be mostly about Science with a capital S, and great scientists, with many episodes focusing on one important discovery and the (often little-known) scientist responsible.

These flashbacks required a lot of animation, which I thought was mostly good. I thought it was funny how evil they made members of the Catholic church look:

Not unjustified.
Speaking of, the most enjoyable part of Cosmos was watching Neil deGrasse Tyson throw some serious shade at science-deniers. Made all the more enjoyable by the show's host-network: Fox. He attacked those who don't "believe" in global warming, as if it's a matter of belief, and those who question evolution and the age of the universe.

I loved the point that if the universe were really as young as some believe it to be, we would not be able to see stars millions or billions of lightyears away. Because the light that we see is millions or billions of years old. That is so simple and logical, I love it.

My favorite bit, from the last episode was the comment he made that he likes being a scientist because they don't have to "pretend to know everything."

Hm. I wonder who that was directed toward.

This brings me to my little rant about Creationism - not even why it's improbable. That's a boring and overdone argument. I want to talk about why it's not even an idea that I enjoy emotionally.

Literal Creationsim (that is believing that the earth is only a few thousand years old and that the entire universe was created in seven days and that all the species were created as they are today) makes the universe incredibly small - and makes it all about us. Neither of these things is true. The universe is unimaginably vast and we are unimaginably inconsequential. And I think that's really reassuring.

Most of all, though, I think that evolution is a beautiful concept. Life just sprang from the void one day: unprecedented, unprovoked, it just happened. By accident. A few more accidents down the line and look where we are today. That's beautiful. I find coincidence and randomness to be far more compelling concepts for the origin of life than fate and agenticity. 

Evolution also means that every form of life of earth shares a single common ancestor. If that isn't magnificent I don't know what is. We are related to trees. I love trees.

I liked the romanticization of scientific concepts in Cosmos. It doesn't all have to be about logic and cold hard reason. That's not very appealing. Neil deGrasse Tyson did a great job showing that science, and also atheism, can be very emotionally satisfying realms of thought. And I really appreciated that.

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Some of my favorite pictures

This post has no value, really, but I wanted to share some funny things with you.


JACOBS BY MARC JACOBS FOR MARC BY MARC JACOBS IN COLLABORATION WITH MARC JACOBS FOR MARC BY MARC JACOBS

He does indeed need to calm down. As do I, I'm laughing so hard I think I broke my collarbone. 


This picture is all kinds of awesome, and would make a great senior prank


I have a rather dark sense of humor so this is probably my favorite one on the list.


I think about this picture at least a few times every day.


Benedict Cumberbatch is such a dork, I love him. And he's photobombing fricking U2. And I say to myself... what a wonderful world.


I love Bryan Cranston as much as I hate Walter White. 

The story here is that a college professor opened this up on his computer while preparing for a lecture.



THE DEER ARE RUNNING TOWARD HIM IN THE BACKGROUND LIKE HEY SOMETHING'S GOING DOWN OVER THERE.

This doesn't need a caption.

It looks like they're having a dance off.

I wanted to print out a million copies of this when we were reading Hamlet and wallpaper my Lit teacher's room.

Yes, thank you, can I get three eaches of bananas?

Well, tumblr has completely re-defined by sense of humor and these are things that I laugh at for like ten minutes straight now. 

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Innocence and judgment: the teddy bear in Breaking Bad

The pink teddy bear is one of the most prominent and well-known symbols in Breaking Bad, appearing in the cold-opens of four episodes in season 2, as well as the very end of "ABQ." There are many different theories on what the bear means, and it's certainly open to interpretation, but this is my attempt to tie it all together into one comprehensive analysis. 

To get this started, there are two major dimensions when it comes to the bear, and it’s incredibly important to make this distinction. There’s the actual bear in the pool. And then there’s the plastic eyeball that becomes detached and that Walt keeps through season 4. The eyeball is, in my opinion, the more important symbol of the two, but we’ll talk about the bear first because it's more difficult to explain.


The color pink is primarily associated with femininity and innocence/youth, and combined, young girls. Holly is born shortly before the bear crashes down, and she’s dressed exclusively in pink for the whole series. That’s not unusual, but the bear, a rather dark symbol, becomes related to Holly through its color.

Once we know where the bear is from, it only gets more disturbing. If there was a pink teddy bear on one of those planes, there was probably a young girl on one of those planes. This is the only time we learn anything about one of the passengers, and it’s really vague. And that’s because the passengers are, like, 95% metaphoric.

Hear me out. Yes there was a real plane crash and yes 167 real people died, but the plane crash and its casualties are symbolic in nature.

Our first clue is this: the chances of the occurrences in "Phoenix" and "ABQ" actually happening are preposterous. Think about it: Going to a bar and talking to the man who's the father of the girl you're about to let die, who then goes on to cause one of the largest air disasters in history, and you don't find out it was him until much later, but you saw the whole thing happen while chilling on your patio wearing a sweater the same color as the very particular piece of debris that falls into your pool.


And you never go to bars.

The universe in Breaking Bad is not random, apparently, no matter what "science tells us." But the point of the plane crash is not to balk and say, Wow, what are the chances? The point is, as you might have guessed, about innocence and judgment.

Simply put, the bear is innocence, the eyeball is judgment. Let's start with innocence.

I already mentioned the relationship between the teddy bear and Holly, and I think everyone is familiar with the connection between the bear and Jane:


She painted the bear on her bedroom wall. Again, the chances are preposterous, but let go of the idea of the entire plane crash thing being literal. It's not.

Jane never seemed like much a "pink" girl, but look - her bed sheets are pink and her whole bedroom has a pink tint to it. (And she did shack up with Jesse Pinkman - more on him later.) We didn't see this soft, feminine side of her until after she died. After she herself becomes a lot less literal and a lot more metaphoric.

My next main point is that Holly and Jane are mirrors: they have the same role. They are daughters. There are several parallels between them at the end of season 2. The bear and the color pink tie them together further. But why are they tied to the bear? Jane makes sense, since her death caused the plane crash, but Holly...

Holly is the picture of innocence in Breaking Bad (as infants usually are). But she arrives in dark times. She rises from Jane's ashes, and becomes the enduring symbol of innocence. The nameless little girl who lost her life in the plane crash was equally innocent.

And Jane was innocent as well. She just had a few more years in her than Holly, but she didn't deserve to die. Jane's death is the first of a complete innocent that resulted directly from Walt's actions. She was not killed for self-defense, she was not a drug dealer, she wasn't even in that world, not really. This is the moment when deaths start to get less excusable. Many more innocents die after Jane, and the epitome of that is the plane crash.

167 unarguably innocent people die, because of a perhaps unlikely but direct chain of events beginning with Walt. As I said before, we're supposed to assume that there was a little girl on one of those planes, but only her teddy bear is ever seen. The victims are kept vague and unnamed on purpose. (I wonder if 167 means anything? Hm.) They died to represent the chain of consequences caused by Walt, and the collateral damage of his actions. In this way, the teddy bear is similar to the fly. It represents the loss of innocent lives and harm done to people in Walt's life, as the fly represents Walt's guilt surrounding collateral damage.

The more enduring symbol, though, is that of the eyeball that pops up a couple times in season 3 and once in season 4:


This isn't all too complicated. It represents the same thing eyes normally do: judgment, especially the judgment of God. (Also see: the eyes of T.J. Eckleberg in The Great Gatsby.) The eyeball reminds us, and Walt, of the plane crash (the irreversible harm he has done to his family and others) and that it is indeed his fault. And he does feel guilty. I mean, "People move on"? Really, Walt? He wants this whole thing to disappear. He never wears a remembrance ribbon (why would he want to remember?), and he makes a ton of excuses - but he knows. When he sees that eyeball, he knows.

One real critic, unlike me, said all of this in a much cleaner way: "The pink teddy bear continues to accuse."

Who who is the teddy bear a stand-in for? Who is accusing? God? "I don't know if you believe in hell, [...] but we're already pretty much going there, right? But I'm not going to lie down until I get there." This season 5 quote suggests that Walt believes in some sort of lasting, eternal judgment - and that he isn't going to come out on top. (Except he includes Jesse in that, carefully using 'we' instead of owning it himself. But that's another post.)

Or is it Walt accusing himself? He does feel guilty, but, as with the fly, he is able to compartmentalize his guilt. It doesn't get any bigger than a plastic eyeball or a pesky fly. The eyeball is carefully tucked away in pockets and drawers and never really dealt with.

The thing with the eyeball is happening parallel to Jesse's experiences with self-acceptance and Walt could do to learn from Jesse. Jesse accepts his fault in what happened, even embraces it. Walt tries his best to ignore it, but it pops up every now and then.

The connection of Jesse Pinkman in all of this is something we can't ignore either. While he is far from innocent in general, he was very much a victim in the tragedies of "Phoenix" and "ABQ" - making it all the more heartbreaking when he blames himself: "I killed her. It was me, I killed her. I loved her. I loved her more than anything" (just typing that out is making me tear up, wow) and of course: "I know who I am. I'm the bad guy."


Perhaps, then, it's Jesse accusing. Or Walt imagining Jesse accusing, since the poor kid has no idea. If that's the case, it's Walt's guilt specifically associated with Jesse and what he has put him through. Jesse is the dimension of the bear that is related to both innocence and judgment.

It also can't be ignored that the bear is white as well as pink. All of this death did initially arise from Walter White teaming up with Jesse Pinkman.  Even though it's hard to blame Jesse for this after seeing him in so much pain - Jane was clean before she started hanging around Jesse. 18 months clean. Jesse is definitely at fault as well for leading her to use again. Walt's role in the tragedy is obvious, but Jesse's self-blame is not misplaced. 

Extrapolating the tragedy of the plane crash to the general, sweeping tragedy of Breaking Bad, Walt and Jesse's roles change very little. Walt's role is obvious and central; Jesse is both an accomplice and a victim.

The white/pink combination has been thought to symbolize death and that certainly makes sense - but Holly, dressed almost always in pink and white, escaped the series unscathed (thank god) so I'm not sure if that's it. It does signify the duo of Walt and Jesse, though.

Another theory I want to debunk is this: The bear is not foreshadowing of "Face Off." Yes, there is a slight visual resemblance:


But let's just take a step back here and remember - Gus wasn't even a character when the teddy bear was introduced in "Seven-Thirty-Seven." Not that they hadn't planned for Gus by then, but I think it's a stretch that they had Gus's death planned out since the very beginning of season 2. It is possible that Gus's death is a callback to the bear. More than possible, actually, I think that's very likely.

Either way, though, let's not get too wrapped up in that. The bear is a totally separate thing from Gus and his death. Gus's death has everything to do with his character, and his facade finally being stripped away after his death (in every possible way) and absolutely nothing to do with the themes represented by the bear. 

So that's everything I've got on the teddy bear for now, but it's clearly a very complex symbol and there's definitely more to it that I haven't even considered yet.

To finish this, let's just take a moment to appreciate the beautiful cinematography and storytelling that made the teddy bear so memorable.

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

35 cool things about Iceland

I'm planning on studying abroad in Iceland, or just straight up transferring to the University of Reykjavik and never coming back. And this is why.

Here are a bunch of cool things about Iceland.

1.) Fricking awesome geology

The word "Geyser" is Icelandic.
2.) Arctic foxes are the only native mammals

Cutest animals ever.

3.) The towns are so cute

They're so small and colorful.
4.) Polar bears arrive sometimes on ice-flows from Greenland

5.) The average temperatures for the year go from mid-twenties to mid-fifties Fahrenheit

6.) Icelandic is amazing and hilarious


7.) It's the most gorgeous place you've ever seen


8.) Northern lights!


9.) Nice flag


10.) Same-sex marriage has been legal for many years

11.) One of the ten most atheist countries in the world

12.) Runs almost exclusively on renewable energy, especially geothermal

This is probably the number one coolest thing.
13.) It's the only landform on the mid-Atlantic ridge


14.) Icelandic ponies


15.) Puffins

Also a local delicacy.
16.) Places to ski and snowboard


17.) Whales


18.) High standard of living and one of the most developed countries in the world

19.) Just a little south of the arctic circle

No full-on midnight sun in the summer, but close.
20.) One of the healthiest countries in the world with a long life-expectancy

21.) Low level of income inequality

22.) Glaciers and glacial rivers



23.) Universal health-care and government-provided tertiary education

24.) Lower taxes than other comparable European countries

25.) The names of the towns are the best ever


26.) Multi-party system

27.) Strong democratic institutions and high voter turnout

28.) English is widely spoken and understood (but I will learn Icelandic)

29.) Traditional Icelandic turf houses


30.) Of Monsters and Men is a great band


31.) Ninety-five percent of population has internet access

32.) Use greenhouses to grow fruit and vegetables


33.) They eat weird cool things


34.) Mountain climbing and hiking are popular


35.) Geothermally heated outdoor pools



I think my search history is a better conclusion than anything I could write:

I'm not messing around here.

For more beautiful photography of Iceland click here.