Friday, October 31, 2014

Just in case you don't fully understand how cool Iceland is yet...

...here's a bunch of pictures of this gorgeous country that I've compiled under /tagged/iceland on my personal tumblr blog.

Reykjavik

Blue Lagoon.

Just a hint of northern lights.

Amazing aerial of a glacier river.

The colorful buildings of Reyjavik.

Blue Lagoon again.

Iceland has most of the world's puffins.

Look at this waterfall. Look at it.

An ice cave.

Got some Wanderlust yet?

Husavik.

An erupting volcano by a tiny little town.

This pony is so rugged.

Full northern lights.

Gorgeous.

I can't.

So much natural diversity.

More volcanoes.

VOLCANOES.

Monday, October 27, 2014

Scandinavian architecture is the best architecture

One of my favorite tumblr blogs that I follow is called subtilitas. This was one of the first blogs I followed, and I absolutely adore its content. It primarily posts architecture pictures, as well as interiors and other design things.

I have a fairly deep appreciation for architecture. I don't necessarily want to be an architect, but I am somewhat emotionally moved by pretty buildings. And I've found that a lot of the architecture that inspires me the most is from Scandinavian countries. So here are some pictures I've compiled from the subtilitas archives to share with you.

From Denmark:






From Finland:


This is a good example of the kind of woodwork that appears to be common in Scandinavian design.



From Iceland:






From Norway:










From Sweden:













The style over all seems to be defined by: angular lines, large windows, paneled wood. This kind of architecture complements the Scandinavian landscape really well. I know next to nothing about architecture, but I still have a deep appreciation for the elegance of this design. And I want to live in all of these houses. It's the aesthetic that I really love.

Monday, October 13, 2014

Breaking Bad and Toxic Masculinity

This is a paper I wrote for my English class this semester. I've also posted this on my Breaking Bad tumblr blog.

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The character type of the anti-hero has seen a lot of incarnations over the years, gaining traction recently. This morally-gray character — infallibly male, usually white — is a version of the more traditional hero and has the same basic arc in every work in which he appears. This is the “put-upon everyman” who starts off fairly meek, but then “mans up” and finally takes what he wants. And the audience almost always cheers him on, whether or not they’re “supposed to.” This character type is obvious in Breaking Bad's Walter White, but some other examples appear in FX's Fargo, The Matrix, Fight Club, Limitless, American Beauty, Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog, Spiderman, Captain America… This is an awakening to a more aggressive, more masculine self. Many of these characters do become violent, but others don't. Some are “good” (heroes) and some are “bad” (anti-heroes), but regardless of any moral failings they can never quite shake the “protagonist” label. The message of this basic character arc is that men who aren’t very masculine are kind of pathetic -- and the plot "fixes" them.

Breaking Bad somewhat deconstructs this since Walt’s change was clearly for the worse, but the plot of the show is at its core propelled by toxic masculinity. Toxic masculinity is one of the ways that a patriarchal, misogynistic society harms men by expecting men to be aggressive, unemotional and powerful. In the show, this is a major theme that sets things in action, does irreparable damage to the less masculine of the characters, but is ultimately not condemned. After his diagnosis of lung cancer, Walt feels immense pressure to provide for his family — but he refuses to accept help when it’s offered to him. He would rather break the law and kill innocents than let his pride suffer. In an important sense, the plot of Breaking Bad wouldn’t happen if not for the culture of toxic masculinity; that men can’t ask for help, can’t accept help, without being seen as weak, and that being seen as weak, as feminine, is incredibly damaging to a man.
 
This fact is reinforced by the use of gendered insults in the show. Jesse is well known for his excessive use of the word “bitch,” mostly in reference to other men. Whereas “bitch” when applied to women means being too bossy and assertive, for men it has the opposite connotation: submissiveness, weakness. The word “pussy” is also used several times to label men as weak, particularly used against Walt by male members of his own family during the first season. This emasculation sets the stage for Walt’s transformation into the aggressive Heisenberg.
 
There is a lot of pressure on men to be able to support not only themselves but also their families. While this is Walt’s justification for his actions, it’s not his real motivation. In the pilot episode, Walt starts off in a very emasculated place. He had a chance to achieve a powerful position of wealth and influence as a brilliant scientist, but now works two lower-status jobs to make ends meet. He is disrespected at work and at home, and doesn’t compare to his macho brother-in-law Hank Schrader. This position of inadequacy propels Walt’s decision to cook crystal meth to provide for his family instead of accepting money from Elliot and Gretchen Schwartz to pay for his treatments.
 
Walt constantly stresses the point that this money is his and he earned it himself. In “Phoenix,” when this is all still a secret, he pulls aside some drywall and shows the stacks of cash to his newborn daughter, telling her, “Daddy did that for you." Later on, in “I.F.T.,” he tells Skyler, “This money, I didn’t steal it. It doesn’t belong to anyone else. I earned it." This is integral to his pride and his sense of being a man. His boss, the meth kingpin Gus Fring, makes this expectation explicitly clear in the third season episode “Más” when he tells Walt, “A man provides. And he does it even when he's not appreciated, or respected, or even loved. He simply bears up and he does it. Because he's a man." Gus takes advantage of expected gender roles to convince Walt to cook for him — and Walt plays right into his hand.
 
Walt goes to the extreme to meet this societal expectation, but his partner Jesse provides an important contrast. Although Jesse is undoubtedly a fan-favorite, there is a considerable subset of viewers who criticize him not for his acts of violence or his inability to take action against Walt, but for his frequent emotional displays: he’s a “crybaby.” He’s not typically masculine enough.
 
Jesse is hurt repeatedly — physically, emotionally, psychologically — by the men within in the drug world. He is clearly not cut out for this life, and becomes, actually, one of the most beat up characters in television history. He’s thin with fairly feminine good looks, he wears his heart on his sleeve, and he is punished for this again and again. By the end of the series, he is beaten up and beaten down beyond repair for the sin of showing emotion. But where Jesse suffers because of toxic masculinity, he ultimately prevails — one of the few to survive the series. His love interests aren’t as lucky; Jane Margolis and Andrea Cantillo are killed as pawns in power plays made by men — killed to manipulate Jesse, removing their value as individuals. Their main value in the plot stems from how Jesse feels about them, and Jesse made the mistake to care for them; his emotion breeds vulnerability for him, but spells death for them.
 
Although Jesse is the poster child for the ways in which men are hurt by toxic masculinity, women are hurt inarguably worse. In a world influenced by toxic masculinity, if men cry they’ll be laughed at (“Does this pussy cry through the whole thing?” Jack asks), but women are killed — to hurt the man who loves them, to create some “man pain” and propel the plot.
 
Skyler White wasn’t treated as poorly by the plot, but the viewers all but crucified her. She has faced enormous criticism from many fans, being branded a “bitch” and a “whore” for not standing by her abusive, murderous husband. Her role in the show is what keeps Breaking Bad from becoming the typical “male power fantasy,” as she’s something of a moral center, and that’s probably why fans have such a problem with her — and with “crybaby Pinkman.” Walt faces a lot of challenges on the way to becoming a meth kingpin, and viewers undoubtedly enjoyed seeing him face off against and ultimately defeat Gus Fring, Mike Ehrmantraut, Jack Welker and his crew, and the various “badass” cartel members. This kind of conflict, man-on-man, based on strength and cunning, only enhances the male power fantasy. But to be stymied by a wife or younger partner is just annoying. Skyler and Jesse defy the roles they should have — that is, supportive doormats — in this power fantasy and instead fight the protagonist in ways that don’t involve violence but rather emotion. “I did all of those things to try to save your life as much as mine — but you’re too stupid to know it,” Walt berates Jesse. “You were never grateful for anything I did for this family,” he accuses Skyler.
 
Through Walt’s eyes, Skyler and Jesse should have supported Walt, should have been grateful for the things he did for them — and in a true power fantasy they would have. In Breaking Bad, however, they offer an interesting challenge, one that Walt is not able to deal with. He can kill Gus and Mike and the Neo-Nazis, but the biggest threat comes from his former student turned surrogate son turning on him and his wife finally deciding she’s had enough.
 
Ultimately, though, Breaking Bad doesn’t condemn Walter White. He gets his punishment in “Ozymandias,” in the death of Hank and the rejection of his family, and in his “Granite State” exile. But the final episode, “Felina,” brings his redemption, deserved or not. Walt dies “on his own terms,” as the show’s creator Vince Gilligan has stated. His mercy is the only thing that saves Jesse’s life. He tries to offer Jesse a chance for revenge, but even that act is incredibly selfish, to ask Jesse to kill once more. Walt gets to spend his last moments, feeling rather proud of himself, with his beloved lab equipment. He’s not forced to think on his sins. “I guess I got what I deserve” the final song says in a surprisingly light tone, but did he really?
 
Vince Gilligan says that Walt got to die “like a man” — “on his own terms.” There’s a sense of victory in that. But what exactly does this mean? Walt in the end was satisfied with his transformation. If, perhaps, he regretted specific actions, he expressed little regret for becoming Heisenberg: “I did it for me. I liked it. I was good at it. And I was, really… I was alive." It doesn’t seem that he would have done it much differently. He got to live, he got to make a name for himself — he got to make a lot of money, and found a way to transfer it to his children.
 
Breaking Bad never outright condemned Walter White nor the culture of toxic masculinity he represents. The ultra-masculine and violent Heisenberg is shown to be a better form than the harmless if unsatisfied, pre-awakening Walter White. All things considered, he enjoyed his rise to the top — and the audience enjoyed watching. Toxic masculinity, manifested in Walt, harmed nearly everyone it touched, but in the end Walt didn’t really have to pay his penance. The people around him suffered far worse, and will continue to suffer long after he’s gone.

Thursday, October 9, 2014

ABCs - More Songs

Part I here. 

Here's 26 (well, 27) songs in alphabetical order. This time, they're all from different artists! Huzzah!

Amsterdam by Coldplay


One of my fave Coldplay songs.


Bloodfound Part II by Alt-J


Absolutely beautiful.


Crash Into Me by the Dave Matthews Band


The Live Radio City version is the best.


Dirty Paws by Of Monsters and Men


Makes me homesick for Iceland.


The Enemy by Mumford & Sons


Made for the "Wuthering Heights" movies.


The Funeral by Band of Horses


Love this song.


Goodbye by Apparat


From the Breaking Bad season 4 finale. Great song.



Hero by Family of the Year


Sweet little song.



If I Had a Heart by Fever Ray


This is perfect for night driving. Intense night driving. 



Jai Ho from Slumdog Millionaire


Catchy song, awesome movie.



Kangaroo Court by Capital Cities


Fun song.



Loser by Beck


I just love this song a lot.



Modern Jesus by Portugal The Man


This is my atheist jam. The anthem of my people.



Nevermind by Foster The People


Nice little song I stumbled upon at some point.



Oh My Andros by Elon Moxey


Puts me in the mood to go to the beach and eat some cracked conch.



Pretty Little Head by Eliza Rickman


I saw her live at the Night Vale show and was captivated.



Que Sera, Sera by Doris Day


This song has a lot of sentimental significance in my family, actually.



Ribs by Lorde


Favorite Lorde song.



Stolen Dance by Milky Chance


Fun song, makes me want to dance and chill and have a good time.



Truth by Alexander


Another one I discovered through Breaking Bad. Glad I did.



Until the End of the World by U2


One of my favorite U2 songs for sure.



Vanishing Underground from the Sherlock Series 3 Soundtrack





We Cry by the Script


Remains one of the best songs by the Script.



XO by Beyoncé


It's Beyoncé.



You've Got Time by Regina Spektor


Orange is the New Black wins for its titles sequence.



Zombie by the Cranberries


I had to find a Z, but hey. Not bad.


# - 1977 by Ana Tijuox


This song makes me feel incredibly cool.